Dear babes (you know who you are),
You know I am interested with all those beauty and fashion stuff. Am currently thinking of products review. Should I start it, at least for now, as an interest, and time filler?
Z
Saturday, April 25, 2015
Monday, March 16, 2015
Confession: Saying no is difficult.
Yesterday was the worst day I have ever had.
Last week (or the previous week), I was asked or rather assigned to be the female rep fire warden, representing company to go for fire drill briefing. I didn't want to and so, I said no.
And yesterday, I was sent a calendar invite to attend the briefing on 26th March and the actual fire drill practise on 30th March. I was annoyed and irritated. I sent an email to my office manager (my 好姐妹) saying I doesn't want to, and was given a "good girl" reply, followed by a Thank you z and xxx. It just made my blood boiled.
I declined the invitation there and then.
Email then came in again to asked what happened, why I declined. I said, I doesn't want to. And my 好姐妹 came over and told me this is an order from the company and I would need to follow.
I was really pissed so I kept quiet. "Please just take it as offering some help to the company." "..." "How?"
"No, I don't want."
"Ok..." and she stomped off.
I don't know if I am the one who is in the wrong, but I really doesnt want to. I do not want to 跟任何人翻脸, neither do I try to piss anyone off.
I really don't have this kind of 心力 to attend this kind of briefing and lead the whole team going down from 37th floor to 1st floor. Please.
What I am pissed off is, why am I the one being chosen. Because I gave in most of the time and I am easiest to manage? Like, seriously?
I did say that I doesn't want, and did anyone actually cares?
I know this might be small matter and I should just give in. I am sorry to say that I am giving in too much, and I am sad for myself. 我这样委屈我自己，一直对别人笑，自己生气的容忍（牺牲），换来的好像只有更委屈，继续让，这样对吗？
Nobody was tasked/asked/assigned after that, it was she herself who be one. So am I the only one you think can help, Or because I was willing most of the time so... I need to be this time, as well?
我很失望.
I always be a nice person, because I am one who doesn't like conflict. I tried to give in so everyone will be happy (especially to her, because I appreciate), and I think I am pretty much, taken for granted.
I cried the whole night because of this. I appreciated the friendship a lot and I never thought this would happen (given our relationship, I would think I would probably given a choice, at least).
I treated you with my 真心, I hope I can at least be given some flexibility to say no.
Heart broken,
Z
Last week (or the previous week), I was asked or rather assigned to be the female rep fire warden, representing company to go for fire drill briefing. I didn't want to and so, I said no.
And yesterday, I was sent a calendar invite to attend the briefing on 26th March and the actual fire drill practise on 30th March. I was annoyed and irritated. I sent an email to my office manager (my 好姐妹) saying I doesn't want to, and was given a "good girl" reply, followed by a Thank you z and xxx. It just made my blood boiled.
I declined the invitation there and then.
Email then came in again to asked what happened, why I declined. I said, I doesn't want to. And my 好姐妹 came over and told me this is an order from the company and I would need to follow.
I was really pissed so I kept quiet. "Please just take it as offering some help to the company." "..." "How?"
"No, I don't want."
"Ok..." and she stomped off.
I don't know if I am the one who is in the wrong, but I really doesnt want to. I do not want to 跟任何人翻脸, neither do I try to piss anyone off.
I really don't have this kind of 心力 to attend this kind of briefing and lead the whole team going down from 37th floor to 1st floor. Please.
What I am pissed off is, why am I the one being chosen. Because I gave in most of the time and I am easiest to manage? Like, seriously?
I did say that I doesn't want, and did anyone actually cares?
I know this might be small matter and I should just give in. I am sorry to say that I am giving in too much, and I am sad for myself. 我这样委屈我自己，一直对别人笑，自己生气的容忍（牺牲），换来的好像只有更委屈，继续让，这样对吗？
Nobody was tasked/asked/assigned after that, it was she herself who be one. So am I the only one you think can help, Or because I was willing most of the time so... I need to be this time, as well?
我很失望.
I always be a nice person, because I am one who doesn't like conflict. I tried to give in so everyone will be happy (especially to her, because I appreciate), and I think I am pretty much, taken for granted.
I cried the whole night because of this. I appreciated the friendship a lot and I never thought this would happen (given our relationship, I would think I would probably given a choice, at least).
I treated you with my 真心, I hope I can at least be given some flexibility to say no.
Heart broken,
Z
Thursday, March 12, 2015
Confession: My direction.
I am not ambitious, neither do I set expectations.
There was a talk, a lunch time sharing by a Psychologist yesterday. It wasn't something I would like to attend if i have a choice, but I am pretty much enjoyed the session, surprisingly! The talk was about some work life integration, what was the priority for now, and what is the kind of 'I want to do more' and 'I need to stop'.
The topic, which I has been tried to keep it aside, striked in again.
Changes: What do I want to be in the future?
I want to be a HR, an inhouse HR professional.
Target is here, but when? WHEN? WHEN? WHEN?
To be honest, I don't know! OK, I know actually, Not So SOON! X.X
I am afraid of changes, I need time and courage to take the change. I am so contented (hmm, am I?) here at where I am right now and I have been giving myself a lot of reasons and excuses to postpone the move.
I need to save more money now, there's upside over here with my current role.(Bullshit, You hate uncertainties)
(Yea right... You have been complaining and you arent happy doing this much work, relative to my pay, not worth it!)
I am not happy with where I am (I mean jobscope not company), what I am doing, neither do I find any satisfaction for now. There are basically 2 ways for me: move UP or move OUT.
Lemme think. Or, you tell me what to do?
Demoralized,
Z
There was a talk, a lunch time sharing by a Psychologist yesterday. It wasn't something I would like to attend if i have a choice, but I am pretty much enjoyed the session, surprisingly! The talk was about some work life integration, what was the priority for now, and what is the kind of 'I want to do more' and 'I need to stop'.
The topic, which I has been tried to keep it aside, striked in again.
Changes: What do I want to be in the future?
I want to be a HR, an inhouse HR professional.
Target is here, but when? WHEN? WHEN? WHEN?
To be honest,
I am afraid of changes, I need time and courage to take the change. I am so contented (hmm, am I?) here at where I am right now and I have been giving myself a lot of reasons and excuses to postpone the move.
I need to save more money now, there's upside over here with my current role.
I am not happy with where I am (I mean jobscope not company), what I am doing, neither do I find any satisfaction for now. There are basically 2 ways for me: move UP or move OUT.
Lemme think. Or, you tell me what to do?
Demoralized,
Z
Wednesday, February 25, 2015
Confession: 孤僻.
我其实不外向，除了几位好友，基本上我其实根本不想 社交。
"Are you serious?" Yes.
别不相信，曾经 我也不以为然，这测试不对，但我渐渐发现，除非必要，我真的不想跟大队出门。
我发现我的朋友圈子越来越小， 男朋友（算吗？），两位知己（还有其他好朋友 但远距离 所以让我想想），好同事，几位点头之交，大学朋友 etc。
平时做工就算了，周日没有出门shopping，我就是懒懒地赖在床上，眼睛粘在电视上，不。动。了。
是时候做些改变了，出门，运动，社交。
Determined,
Z
"Are you serious?" Yes.
别不相信，曾经 我也不以为然，这测试不对，但我渐渐发现，除非必要，我真的不想跟大队出门。
我发现我的朋友圈子越来越小， 男朋友（算吗？），两位知己（还有其他好朋友 但远距离 所以让我想想），好同事，几位点头之交，大学朋友 etc。
平时做工就算了，周日没有出门shopping，我就是懒懒地赖在床上，眼睛粘在电视上，不。动。了。
是时候做些改变了，出门，运动，社交。
Determined,
Z
Tuesday, January 27, 2015
Confession: 离乡背井
很多人说 哇你就好啦 赚星币 回来花马币 2.62（现在2.66了）叻
我只能说 是很好 是 你看我好 我看你也不错 的好
离乡背井 我真的不是这块料
回想我在新加坡 一开始的第一年 哎哟 一个字 惨！
我 2009 年到新加坡 开始了离开家的生活
到的第一天 哦不 是前半天 很开心 想说 厕所干净 较高生活素质 熟悉但有待explore的环境 bugis shopping 真是赞👍！（新加坡 对我并不陌生 妈妈是柔佛州人 所以新加坡 是我与家人每年必到之处）
听起来很不错呗 但 不久 就 lao kui (漏气）咯
抵达机场 是阿姨姨丈接的机 毕竟是第一次 meiyouche 不算旅程的行程
在车上开心聊天 不久就到了学校宿舍 check in
我这洁癖公主 很开心 地方是干净的 我什么都没有啊！
妈妈来电 我完了 一边讲电话 一边变声 LOL
就这样 就哭了一整年
但路是自己走的 没得回头
AND 就这样 我在这里将近 6 年头了 还是很想家 还是会想回家
人说 离家是为了归家
我说 我真的很想回家 现在还是会这样想
最近 姐妹也来了新加坡 第三天 阿姨姨丈的无微不至 对她是一种压力 一种折磨 但有时候 很多事情就真的只可以 看开点
我是过来人 这是过渡期 加油呗！
离家就是为了归家
Cheers and be happy,
Z
我只能说 是很好 是 你看我好 我看你也不错 的好
离乡背井 我真的不是这块料
回想我在新加坡 一开始的第一年 哎哟 一个字 惨！
我 2009 年到新加坡 开始了离开家的生活
到的第一天 哦不 是前半天 很开心 想说 厕所干净 较高生活素质 熟悉但有待explore的环境 bugis shopping 真是赞👍！（新加坡 对我并不陌生 妈妈是柔佛州人 所以新加坡 是我与家人每年必到之处）
听起来很不错呗 但 不久 就 lao kui (漏气）咯
抵达机场 是阿姨姨丈接的机 毕竟是第一次 meiyouche 不算旅程的行程
在车上开心聊天 不久就到了学校宿舍 check in
我这洁癖公主 很开心 地方是干净的 我什么都没有啊！
妈妈来电 我完了 一边讲电话 一边变声 LOL
就这样 就哭了一整年
但路是自己走的 没得回头
AND 就这样 我在这里将近 6 年头了 还是很想家 还是会想回家
人说 离家是为了归家
我说 我真的很想回家 现在还是会这样想
最近 姐妹也来了新加坡 第三天 阿姨姨丈的无微不至 对她是一种压力 一种折磨 但有时候 很多事情就真的只可以 看开点
我是过来人 这是过渡期 加油呗！
离家就是为了归家
Cheers and be happy,
Z
Thursday, January 22, 2015
Confession: Working.
Again, another post with working life.
To be very frank, up to 2 years of working, I am getting bored of it. Wanted to take a sabbatical of a month, but with no concrete excuse - 难道我要说，我做到很闷吗？
I started off in a not very good environment, not only I said so, but there were agreeable comments by all my colleagues and ex-colleagues. I would said that I am lucky enough to start off in a challenging environment, at least I will be able to judge better moving forward.
Glad that when my boss moved on, he tagged us along, and I am proud to be one in the team, I was still on a working pass by then, hence I must say I should be really good, at least I was good previously :)
Current environment is not as conducive. I still enjoy some companions but not all. Have been rather stress when it comes to team lunch, breakfast companion... I am really not that extrovert, am I?
People say, when you are no longer looking forward to going to work everyday, is time to change... I don't foresee the change in very near future, but i foresee myself, to be low energy for a while.
Take care,
Z
To be very frank, up to 2 years of working, I am getting bored of it. Wanted to take a sabbatical of a month, but with no concrete excuse - 难道我要说，我做到很闷吗？
I started off in a not very good environment, not only I said so, but there were agreeable comments by all my colleagues and ex-colleagues. I would said that I am lucky enough to start off in a challenging environment, at least I will be able to judge better moving forward.
Glad that when my boss moved on, he tagged us along, and I am proud to be one in the team, I was still on a working pass by then, hence I must say I should be really good, at least I was good previously :)
Current environment is not as conducive. I still enjoy some companions but not all. Have been rather stress when it comes to team lunch, breakfast companion... I am really not that extrovert, am I?
People say, when you are no longer looking forward to going to work everyday, is time to change... I don't foresee the change in very near future, but i foresee myself, to be low energy for a while.
Take care,
Z
Sunday, January 11, 2015
Confession: 感慨.
Life back to a typical working weekend(before stepping into office again) after my long break. Rather reluctant but no choice.
Have been meeting with a few people throughout my vacation. Great meetup after 4 years with new but not so new faces.
Life has been good to us. All of us got onto different paths and we still remember and, care to meet with each other's.
Life has been difficult because earning money isn't that difficult but spending is easy and fast. New year goal will be something like earning 15k in a year(can't save 20k in a year like how the blogger teached due to so many other factors like rental and working socializing, hence setting a lower and hopefully achievable one).
Life goes on in 2015, I hope it will be a great year for me, my family and friends!
Xoxo,
Zoey
Have been meeting with a few people throughout my vacation. Great meetup after 4 years with new but not so new faces.
Life has been good to us. All of us got onto different paths and we still remember and, care to meet with each other's.
Life has been difficult because earning money isn't that difficult but spending is easy and fast. New year goal will be something like earning 15k in a year(can't save 20k in a year like how the blogger teached due to so many other factors like rental and working socializing, hence setting a lower and hopefully achievable one).
Life goes on in 2015, I hope it will be a great year for me, my family and friends!
Xoxo,
Zoey
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